no takebacksies

FRIEND! Sorry to harass you with another blog so soon...I promised myself I'd put out four blogs in January. I didn't really think I'd do it, but here I am...doing it...annoying you with a fourth blog.

Every year I tell myself I'm going to blog every week and the most I ever got out was eight blogs in 2015. I put one out in 2017, one in 2018 and three last year.

You're probably thinking, “What does that have to do with me?” Well nothing. (Cringe emoji face.) It has nothing to do with you. You're just stuck in the middle. Sorry, friend.

WAIT! There's more...

I'll make it quick, The Hubs is outside bbq-ing so I have to utilize this time catching up on my crap TV...Southern Charm reunion first...

I have a list of ways to build my business and first up: guest on local podcasts. Finally I had the opportunity. We booked our date and then had to reschedule several times which was fine with me because I want to be a big success but I also want to be invisible.

Finally permanent date set. This is it. No take backsies.

Wait...can I take backsie? I felt sick with anxiety the weeks leading up to the interview. There was a dark cloud looming over me.

How can I get out of this? But I have to do this. If not now, then when? I'll never be as cool in person as I am in my head. Then I'll just be disappointed in myself. I'm so awkward in real life. How can I get out of this?

I talk it over with The Hubs. “I should just cancel.” He talks me out of it.

Finally I decide, sometimes I'm hilarious and smart and sometimes I'm stupid and lame. And that's just what's up.

Recorded podcast. Think I blacked out. Babbled. Rambled. Said weird things about my anxiety.

HEY, FRIEND! I did it! I was a guest on my first podcast...details coming soon...

I'm so glad I did that, even though it seemed so scary.

I would say for you to do one thing every day that scares you, but everything scares me, so that sentence makes no sense to me.

I will say... you are everything this world needs and you have everything you need within you to succeed. You are magic. You are brave and strong and creative. You are doing a fan-f%cking-tastic job so keep on keeping on. 

Thanks, for reading my fourth blog. 

I believe in you.
You can do anything.
You are greatly loved.

Sincerely, Veronica Towns